baby i'm ready to go

having no internet sucks.

having an apartment, however, is pretty much awesome.

had a total clerks day the other day. wasn't supposed to go to work, had to be in early, and everything went wrong, including ridiculous things that would've made for an excellent storyline to a cartoon sitcom. i spent most of the afternoon telling everyone "i'm not even supposed to be here today!!" two people got it.

officially getting a promotion at work. yay for more money. boo for being owned by the man. i'm thinking this job might kill me if i don't find something else soon. but it's good for now. and i'm glad that i'm still employed.

headed to indiana this weekend. yay for that.

boyfriend situation on the fritz.

been drinking frequently lately, just because that's what my friends are doing. i'm thinking maybe i should find a new pasttime. not really getting drunk though, usually.

missing the internet. missing people. loving living alone.

watching lots of movies. lots of movies.

need to catch up on the world's happenings though. ::disappears::

she's not a p.i.

watching: the starter wife

sitting in my underwear at michelle's. she just helped me dye my hair and now i have to wait 25 minutes for it to set.

tonight, i sorted two gigantic bags of m&m's because brian wants orange and brown ones in the rice krispie bars tomorrow at work. apparently they don't have a halloween mix. ridic. he'd better appreciate this when he gets back from the hospital (he had surgery today).

i have an apartment now, and it's exciting. tonight i bought brownie mix so i can make presents for my neighbors. a thank-you to the lady across the hall who brought me lunch the other day, and a bribe for the boys upstairs so they will share their internet with me.

i may or may not have a boyfriend? he asked, and i said no, but for all practical purposes, we're totally together. i'm not entirely sure i want this. we'll see. right now, i'm just kind of going with it. kind of curious how it will end. details to follow.

it's time to wash this stuff out of my hair.

pants-on-head retarded

michelle says "pants on head retarded" all the time, so it's in my brain. i don't think i'll ever use it in conversation though.

i'm itchy all over. stupid cat.

i also woke up really early and can't fall back asleep. i'm debating going for a run.

signed a lease on an apartment yesterday. yay!! i can move in any time starting tuesday. everyone should come visit.

it's weird, but i think i'll miss sleeping on people's couches a little bit. i'm tired of imposing, but it's nice having people around. last night i made michelle promise that we'd still hang out a lot.

speaking of hanging out a lot, i've been spending a ridiculous amount of time with some guy i met last sunday. not sure yet what's up with that, but it's fun for now. and he took me for a ride on his motorcycle the other day which was awesome.

also, i am a schmuck. a guy in the parking lot the other day asked for my phone number and i couldn't think of a good answer (he was really persistent) and now he's calling a LOT. four times in half an hour yesterday. it's starting to border on creepy. he wants to buy me dinner with his LINK card.

going to chicago for a few days with juliet. everyone should come visit.

your twenties

life

i'm losing it

watching: west wing

still living at michelle's. she kind of rocks my socks off. i wish i had internet access though. i finally am getting to use her computer, which lets me check my email, but i can't access it with my computer, so i can't send a few messages that i need.

i got a call last week about a potential job at steppenwolf, so as soon as i can, i'll send off my resume and a cover letter and see what happens with that.

i'm training at noodles for the assistant manager position. randy was getting stressed trying to train so many people, so now i'm training at the other store. jury's still out on whether or not this is a good idea. it went ok last night. today i'm back at my store because they need me.

went to a birthday party the other night. for a kid that i knew in high school, but never really liked. it was actually pretty awesome.

speaking of awesome, i got the coolest skirt in the history of EVER. i might have ripped it a little bit trying to walk up some stairs, but i think i can fix it. it makes me happy. (the skirt. not the rip.) it's colorful and flowy and happy.

this cat, conversely, makes me itchy.

i think that maybe i have an apartment??? i found a place a little over a week ago, and it's a pretty good deal. one bedroom. utilities included. month-to-month lease. brand new appliances, flooring, and paint. the lady actually called me the other day to find out what color i wanted the bathroom painted. the flooring guy was supposed to finish yesterday, and whenever he's done the landlady will call for me to view it one more time and then i can sign. whenever i have my next day off, i can hopefully move!! i'm loving living with people, but i'm ready to have my clothes in a closet instead of a suitcase, and i can sleep in a BED instead of on a couch or the floor. i can walk around naked if i want!

need to watch the vpresidential debates. any suggestions as to how? the bits i've seen make me like biden more, but apparently if i watch it, i'll fall in love with him (so says mike).

ran lights for a stillline show last weekend. pretty fun. got hit on by some weird frat kid. but i got free beer! and bad pickup lines. good times.

i should go shower or something. i've been sleeping weirdly lately, so i got up early and i'm running out of things to do.

that's a weird way to end this post.

who do you need? who do you love?

listening to: come undone, duran duran

been living at katie's. moving to kyle's. not sure i really want to, and right now i'm procrastinating packing up the few things i have into my little suitcase and moving it over there. i promised i'd bring beer, so i still have to run to the store, too.

being a hobo sometimes is no fun.

job situation is still cloudy, with a chance of sunshine. hopefully the sun will peek out tomorrow?

(/attempt to be witty)

i have someone in this town that i can talk with about inappropriate subject matter! woohoo!

gonna run lights for a stillline show which i'm pretty excited about because i'm a big dork. i went to their practice yesterday in st louis and it was fun and they're pretty decently good which is exciting and their practice space rocks my socks OFF. if they let me go back with them in two weeks, i'm bringing a camera.

i've had my camera in my car for SO LONG and i never take it out and snap pictures. and even if i do, i never get them off of my camera. i should maybe work on that.

need to have more money and a few weeks off so i can visit all the people all over the country that i want to see. damn you all for living so far away.

but that aside, my friends totally rock. i keep being reminded of this as i'm being forced to rely on everyone else for absolutely EVERYTHING lately. hopefully i can be as gracious in the future. though i hope no one else ever has to be homeless. but if you do, totally call me for realz. k?

there was a boy

listening to: nature boy, moulin rouge soundtrack

i can't breathe and it's very uncomfortable. stupid allergies.

worked a whole bunch today and now i'm kind of really exhausted, but my brain isn't tired enough to fall asleep. it's only 10:30. i didn't get to bed 'till 5 last night. (this morning?). i'm trying to muster the energy to put on a different shirt and go to the store to buy, and subsequently consume a bottle of wine. but it just takes so much EFFORT.

watched all of the OC because i'm just that cool.

living on a couch. all of my stuff is in storage. i'm a big mooch. but at least i have kickass friends who have couches.

got a promotion at work. now i'm a manager in training. what i'm training FOR is still a big question mark. for everyone. but at least it's a start.

and apparently theatre y is on hold, which is frustrating, but whatev. the rest of my life is on hold too, so what difference is one more?!

baker's square is closed and now i don't know where i will go to ever eat pie again.

ice cream actually sounds kind of good right now too.

i need to do laundry like woah.

i've discovered i have this stupid habit i've developed where i love to read, but i distract myself by watching movies or things of that nature, and then when i finally settle with a book, i read the whole damn thing in one sitting, regardless of the length (i'm sure exceptions would be made in the case of sheer ridiculousness, but this is the trend so far). i love reading. i just need to find a way to do it at home and not just when i'm out.

i think i'm going to try to sleep. we'll see.

where to put my foot next

listening to: it hasn't happened yet, william shatner

have i mentioned how awesomely bad this album is?

this album = awesomely bad.

CALLING ALL PEOPLE WITH RECENT PICTURES OF ME

I need one. badly. for playing cards that will apparently have my face on them. i don't know. ask megan the red. but the only pictures i have of me are from halloween or when you can't see my whole face. i feel like these are not permissible wedding playing card images of me. someone should fix it.

my apartment lacks any furniture. and internet access, but fortunately i can still occasionally steal it. it's also lacking a roommate now. it's kinda lonely. sleeping on the floor at night in an empty apartment. oh well. in a week i'll be homeless.

oh.

CALLING ALL PEOPLE WITH SPARE ROOMS/COUCHES

i might be calling you for a place to stay. totally going to be homeless very soon. using katie's house as my forwarding address. stressing slightly about this. but my friends are awesome.

several years ago, i was fighting with my parents (one of the many times) and my mom for whatever reason was informing me that my friends shouldn't matter so much because when things got hard, it'd be my family that would support me, not my friends. my friends would leave me someday, but my family would always be there. this is proving profoundly untrue. my family is around, and i had lunch with them on sunday, but i can't say that we've had a real conversation in a long time, and if i need something, they're the last people i turn to. i'm sure they'd help if i needed it, but i'm not sure it's out of love so much as obligation. i'm way more excited about being a continuing mooch and sleeping on couches. could be kind of fun until everyone gets sick of me.

some of my friends are settling into "real life" with jobs and spouses and babies and houses and whatever. it's weird. part of me wants a little bit of that (the stability, anyway) but this is fun. and ridiculous.

i think i might roadtrip pretty soon. indiana, colorado, texas, new york, los angeles, somewhere.