i'm such a girl

i just got back from texas. one of the most ridiculous things that i've done in a long time. just ask me about it. you'll agree.

it was a good trip though.

now, unrelated to texas, i am incredibly broke and might be in serious trouble very very soon (read: december). anybody want to give me a job...doing ANYTHING? i'm getting a little desperate.

i got a shot of steroids in my butt yesterday and i've had a crazy bad headache ever since. but maybe i'll get big muscles and look cooler than i already do.

need more friend time, i think. went to dennys with jada two nights ago and it was awesomely good times. i like my friends.

i almost thought that i saw megan on monday but i didn't and it was sad. unless mike started driving around red SUVs with other women. in portage indiana. which i doubt.

maybe soon i will have a real job that pays me real money and then i can visit people and have internet in my apartment and stop stressing so much and it will be happy.

in the mean time, i will be broke and enjoy my ramen. because i've discovered ways to make it tasty. YAY ME!

missing you all.

gay porn

i just had to do a search for gay porn. ew. it's all over now.

megan's getting married in a couple hours. i'm super excited for her and it's crazy hella weird. mike's a good guy though.

i'm on adhd medication now. no conclusion yet on whether or not it's a good plan.

no new car yet. got a flat on the bike i was borrowing too. i think the transportation gods are trying to tell me something.

i need to shower.

oh. that's just a fact. not a message from any gods.

power digital

on wednesday night, i drove full speed into someone's yard. i was completely sober at the time and have no clue how it happened. i am fine. the yard is theoretically damaged, but it's pretty hard to tell because it's mostly just weeds. they towed my car w/o my permission because i didn't hear the knock on the door at 6am, and as of yet, i am not allowed to retrieve it. based on the pieces that we picked up, i'm scared that it might be bad. shawn was in the car with me at the time, but we are both completely ok. i am so grateful that i have amazing friends helping me through this, because my parents aren't talking to me at all, having assumed that i was driving drunk.

and last week my cousin and his wife had a baby who died two days later, reasons unknown.

it hasn't been a very good week.

my motivation is gone.

but shawn was here at it was a super good time and he made me happier and we talked about all kinds of ridiculousness and i introduced him to some of my friends.

i have an interview on monday at olive garden. they're the only people to call me back so far from all the applications i've dropped off. maybe they'll give me a job and then i can actually pay my bills. noodles hasn't scheduled me in the last three weeks, and i only have one day this coming week.

but i have the keys to doug's car and his house so i'm using the internet and his television and hopefully i can get my car out tomorrow night and then monday i'll get hired to be a server at olive garden and then things will start to look up again.

also, my dress for megan's wedding is done being altered. yay!

somebody's watching me

watching: way too much television

my car is in the shop. it's going to cost me an obscene amount of money. i hate cars.

i went to indiana for the weekend. it was interesting. david's wedding was weird. then i went to a super ultra hick kegger in portland complete with an arsenal and a ridiculous television show called, appropriately, trailer park. hung out with megan and drank WAY too much coffee. drove a lot.

i don't understand all the marrying stuff. i feel way to...young or something? i don't know. it's all weird. but i'm really excited about megan's wedding. it's nice to be excited about weddings once in a while.

i need to figure out what to do next. find a job. move. go to grad school. i need to do more research.

edit: so i'm at my parent's house today doing laundry and watching television. abc family is totally airing a show called "10 Things I Hate About You" with the SAME premise as the movie. They even found actors that look similar. I'm shocked and appalled and....i don't know. it looks pretty terrible.

nu

watching: melissa channel surf

i'm in romania. holy shit balls.

i've been here for a week an a half. i'm in the cultural capital of the world. and i just saw the most ridiculous production of leonce and (si) lena in the history of ever. and enjoyed it thoroughly. even though i didn't understand more than maybe ten words ("domnilor, domnilor" being two of them).

juliet went well today. i'm here all day tomorrow. we're watching a japanese production of titus that i'm pretty thrilled about. and hopefully we'll get in unlike last night's faust and have a seat unlike tonight's leonce. i've also seen danton's death, dracula, richard iii, uncle vanya, and some crazy thing involving fake elephants.

i should probably use italics to make this easier to read.

but you deserve it because i can't understand anything here either. stupid romanians only speaking romanian and hungarian and german and a little bit of english. didn't they know i was coming?!

more coming now that i've figured out how to get internet at my awesome hotel. and pictures on facebook when i get home because i promised.

oh babe i hate to go

listening to: leavin' on a jet plane, some chick? it's off of one of megan's mixes

life is weird.

i'm in connecticut. in the last two weeks, i've been to connecticut, massachusetts, new jersey, philadelphia, new york...with a lot of repeats in between. i fly home tomorrow and then fly to romania on wednesday.

i need to do laundry.

the dog thing fell through and i'm really sad now every time i see one. i'm thinking about consoling myself with a good ol' trip to the dominican republic.

i need a job again. noodles and co wants to keep me but i'm kind of done with their shenanigans, unless something changes. my manager is supposed to call me this week. he hasn't called yet.

some guy named craig called the other day and offered that i could manage my own branch of citibank. when i asked how they got my name, he couldn't tell me. i think this is a scam.

someone invited me to join their bsdm threesome. i said no.

i'm really excited about romania.

oh! and kellie's play is being performed in NYC this weekend! which is awesome. and megan is getting married. also awesome. talia's not coming home this summer which is significantly less awesome.

i'm taking votes on where i should move.

on life

i might get a dog. i'm very excited about the possibility. but it's probably a bad idea. but it's FREE and i WANT it lots.

anna is usually my voice of reason and she totally agrees with me. my family can only point out that i'm incapable of taking care of myself so how do i expect to care for a LIVING THING?!

my skirt is ripped and it's sad.

home for a few more days before my crazy month of travel! eep! i just printed off the flight confirmation for ROMANIA!! woo!!!!!!!

megan's engaged. cori's engaged. david's engaged. heather's engaged. elizabeth's engaged. allison's engaged. other...people are engaged. it's all very weird. good, mostly (save one), but weird.


i'm feeling very chill in a very cluttered way lately. enjoying the weather. reading books. feeling calmer than i have in a while. i mostly cleaned my apartment, but need to do dishes badly. but this dog seems like maybe a very good thing. we'll see.

i'm happy.

i just need to figure out what's happening when i get home in a month. anyone want me to live with you?